I’m Andrew-Ryan Profaci, and I lived closer to Amy Carlson—known as “Mother God”—than anyone else ever had. I wasn’t just a distant observer of the Love Has Won cult. I was on the inside before it even became a cult. I was her confidant, her best friend, her lover. And at one point, I was being positioned to be “Father God.”

But I walked away.

What I saw during that time—and in the years that followed—changed everything. I witnessed firsthand the manipulation, the mind control, the spiritual distortion, and the unraveling of something that once held potential into something deeply destructive. I did what I could to stop it before it turned dark. Amy even left the team and crossed the country to be with me, but the momentum of illusion was already too far gone.

When I first joined, I was searching for truth outside myself.
What I found—through fire—was that truth can only be discovered within.

Since leaving, I’ve spent years reflecting, healing, and integrating. I’ve also faced and overcome cancer—an experience that pushed me to live fully, honestly, and in service to others. That calling is what brings me here.

I’m telling the story nobody else can tell—from the inside out.
Not just to expose, but to offer insight, healing, and clarity to anyone who’s been manipulated, lost, or searching.

My story has been featured on Dateline NBC, HBO, VICE, and numerous podcasts and media outlets—but that’s not why I speak. I speak because people deserve to know what really happened, and more importantly—how to find their way back to themselves afterward.

Through this site, I’m sharing my experience with Love Has Won, spiritual deception, emotional recovery, and the deeper metaphysical truths I’ve come to understand. I’m also creating space for other survivors to share their stories. If you’ve been affected by cults, manipulation, or spiritual abuse—your voice matters too.

This is about more than exposing the past.
It’s about reclaiming the present—and serving something far greater.

🚨 It’s time to uncover what they tried to hide.

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